Into the Nebbia

The job is at hand and I am still and swollen
My hands are bleeding and bruised
You are there and I have fallen
I am on the ground and your head grazes in clouds
The earth grows quickly and before I can catch my breath
Three years pass by and your memory is hazed
I am forgotten by you; my meaning maybe lost?
I walk but my steps are silent and the direction now mazed

Blood trails let me learn where I am from
Where I have been and what I have done
When all is lost maybe I am only one
Unsung, but forever won
Because when I fall and than find my footing
I will stand again alone and be... something
Something
Something!!!
I will create a world around me
Full of... Everything
Everything
Everything!!!

Hungover Myself

My eyelids are wet curtains 
They struggle to lie over my exhausted pupils
My bed is beckoning, but I am fleeing my dreams
Soaking in the day’s desolate scenes
Listening to the nothingness of my home
My apartment is silent and soiled

The lust to clean lost long ago
Does anybody miss me as I sit in stillness here alone?

Last night the Devil joined me for dinner
We laughed over whiskey and made plans for death in winter

My ambition drowned last night in a sea of distilled spirits
As I incessantly sipped the sweet bottle with sentence
And the fire of passion ceased to burn; no more
Forever I have felt so much more than my brothers whom I adore
They spite me and whisper their mocking so elegantly

Yes I am weak; yes I am locked inside the cellar door
Its cold and full of broken mirrors
My feet are bare and I walk softly, but footprints of blood show my trail
Sometimes I look back and scrub myself off the floor
But my cuts are cavernous and the puddles… profound

Help me sleep and not dream my Angel
You see me pathetically fucking myself
Over and over again milking myself dry
To kill the pain inside
For a mere moment I can just “be”.

-Mr W

Anticipation

Tomorrow is incessantly beckoning my mind

The weekly diversions couldn’t be more beyond my desire

Though I want them more than food

Here I am; you are many miles behind a faceless phone

Your words linger in electronic messages

When you talk about letting go….

Will you let me in?

I can only swallow my expectations and grin

When someday is today; you can touch me

I will only touch you enough to make up for time

Times when faces looked upon me; they saw my secret

Only in my head

Even tainted in mysterious mirrors

They, spontaneously juxtaposed on esoteric faces

Never did I foresee; which is what I always dreamt

Deep down behind my pride is a secret strife

So close I can taste it

Another life

I ponder what you taste like

Its hard to let go; I can only be honored you will for me

So far we are

Connected we could be

I wish my words might pacify anticipation

Once I ran away very far; I found myself

I left my heart there forever

Now dust dwells upon that shelf

Your island is a place unknown to me

Can I lose myself again there?

Maybe find something

Something somewhat undefined; always there where I never knew

Make You Hostile

You swallow perpetuated sorrow
It whispered from my echoing eyes
A taste of my angry lips and you are hostile
Denuding my child by deciphering the lies

Soak up the distractions and follow the actor
He paints you a pretentious backdrop
Scenery so shallow and surreal
In the dream you refuse to question the truth
The entrapping net you slumber
My covers are warm, but my bed is so unsettling
And the promises they number

You still follow me and await my finish
The line is down a concealed corridor
Locked and the key is an impossible riddle
So swallow my perpetuated sorrow
And let me make you hostile
Scream at me and call me the liar
Never let me drift from the task of solving it
Never let me float away in the mire

Waking to you

Pulled into this unwritten day

My eyes open to you behind esoteric images

You sleep and I lay silent

Watching the light reflecting

It outlines your sheer silky skin

As I pet your unclothed curves

and kiss your bare back deeply

Inside you I am always

You allow me to follow you in this sunshine maze

Walk next to you on a lonely road

Somewhere between fate and fiction

We write the words together

Your eyes open and I am real

They penetrate me and I am healed

I cannot let go of your body and mind

Without you I wish to never wake again

I find fulfillment in your embrace

I find eternity in your face

My past disappears in dreams

You are my future

To Tova My Supernova

I dream in esoteric nuances of familiar entities that swallow my perceptions

They take my desires and neatly place them in pockets

Tucked away in forgotten jackets left in empty dust infested cabs

I run after the red lights drifting away into the haze

Drifting into the night that lasts forever until tomorrow

Awaken in light drained bedrooms still deep inside the maze

Follow me there and I am captured by your moonlight

Even after the day has taken the dusk

I am forever captured by the star light glowing on your skin

Even after the birds chirp and tell me the coast is clear

Only as sweet and seductive as your eyes

They gaze upon me and I am safe from the sorrow

Filled up with warmth from the wallowing in your body

Keep me here and I am happy and I don't cry

I will continue to love you until the day that I die

Again and again to awake against your soul

Way beneath the barriers between us

I am weak to your hold

I think that I am one with you as we intertwine

My body fits you like the obscure piece of a puzzle

Only too old and bent from years and years of loneliness undearneath your bed

I have been beat just like you and we are only

Came together in the end when all has been destroyed we will find eternity

In minutes in decades, in light years it never will end....

Into You

Fall into me as I have so

Fooled by many other times ago

When my heart was young and love a miss

I would swallow my pride and disappear in bliss

To only learn pain and collect my scars

Wallow and forget myself in those infinite stars

Searching for meaning and answers to anguish

Needed something of some engrossing gist

To content this stiflingly sensitive soul

Reaching his hands out for someone to hold

When all he needed was himself

And notice the pictures collecting dust on the shelf

Old loves and people of the past

So silently slip away so fast

Every ounce of heartbreak

I before left sitting by the city by the lake

Their echoes haunt my halls

And I see my words still painted on those walls

Telling stories of my perceptive passion

For years I climbed dead trees

Searching for an enlightening breeze

To cure me of my disease

Help me let go... Help me release

You found me here poking at desire

Setting my bed on fire

Sleeping in the street and awaking to the sun

Searching for something stimulating, sexual or just fun

At the end of the day

You will be here and you will stay

When all embers of yesterday fade away

My sidewalk was clear and I was walking

Silence was subtle while the demons were skulking

I could hear their whispers and manipulating voices

Haunting my veneer with desperate choices

Diverting my focus and leading me astray

Until I found you and you showed me a way

That there is hope fo the bleeding hearts

From this trite and esoteric sea

I will love you for as long as you let me