May 10th

Endlessly I question my urge to ponder
Inside this mind
Digging deep
Searching for an answer
In past pictures
Was there something I missed?
Experiencing backwards
Reaching for God in days that have gone
So young
Needed to escape
Before puberty I indulged
Sadness was sweet
Made nest of it
Learned Loneliness
To accept defeat
Obsess in love
Even before
I knew her
Without seeing
Who I am
Infatuated with death
Why we live
When we die
In the middle we lose
To spend every day getting it back